okay so last night i had a full blown nightmare and i woke up in a cold sweat at 3am and i wrote down the dream in my notes, but i haven’t been able to type it up all day. so anyway here’s how it goes;

I was working at Walmart and my friends and I were joking around while we were working. All of a sudden we decided to go to this party and we all got drunk and we left the building down this really creepy spiral staircase and there was no railing on the staircase so it would be extremely easy to fall down, which is exactly what happened to my friend. He fell all the way to the bottom of the stairs and we raced down to check on him. Once I realized that he was alive and okay I decided to walk up a few steps and just wait while he regains his balance and everything. All my friends were helping him and making sure that he’s okay except for one that was playing with my hair. I looked closer and I noticed that all four of my friends from Walmart are over by the guy that fell, but if that was the case I was wondering who the hell was caressing my hair. Instead of feeling safe I get this immediate sense of panic and my heart starts racing. I call out, “Show me your hands…” and instead of a reply I can feel the hands run through my hair again. This time I glance around and I first notice a pair of dirty feet. When I look up I see a woman with green eyes, her dilated pupils staring right at me. She lets out this screech and that’s when I wake up, terrified and sweating.

I did some research and the best thing that i could come up with to interpret this is that possibly I’m repressing some feelings, and I’m not being true to myself. This is represented by the pair of green eyes from that woman. I think it means that I’m afraid of my true emotions or afraid of who I really am??

alrighty so lets just get right into it. my dream last night began at this carnival. i was with my little brother and sister and we were walking around looking at all of the food, rides, and games. i saw this really cool ice cream food stop, but i wasn’t able to eat at it because i’m lactose intolerant. we walked past that to this awesome funhouse that had these interesting looking creatures in separate rooms. one room has this black eel-like creature that had violet stripes along it’s body. it was floating in the air, and i noticed that it looked as if it was swimming, but there was no water in the room. the next room we went to had a cloud shaped creature that was a baby blue color. i can’t really remember all of the creatures that were in the rooms, but after we got through all of it we got a prize. the price was this really cool floating ball. i wasn’t really sure what it was for, but i was glad to have a prize. so i hopped on the ball and i was suddenly able to fly. it was so freaking cool. i just flew around the place on a ball. i flew over the carnival over to this beautiful turquoise lake. i noticed all of the large salmon that were swimming around the lake. i landed on the sidewalk that was along the lake, and i began walking. the lake was so incredibly peaceful compared to the noisy and chaotic carnival. it was at this point in my dream that my mom decided to walk in a rudely interrupt this awesome dream. i was extremely annoyed lol.

so to interpret what this means the carnival part of my dream represents me yearning for a change in my life. the lake/peaceful part of my dream means that i’m holding back feelings/emotions. which is actually true. i’ve been holding back some things because i’m afraid of getting hurt, but i think that it’ll benefit me to just let go and feel what i wanna feel. live my life, ya know?